Saturday, February 20, 2010

You won't do anyone any good...

"You won't do anyone any good pretending to be less than you are."

Some random time ago, I heard this somewhere and I wrote it down. I've been planning on writing about it forever but to my dismay, I haven't had anything to say about this or anything for a long time.

I'm tired of not having anything to say. In 2004, I started this blog. I loved this blog and I poured my heart and soul and many hours of late night musings into it. Many people used to read it and I loved that I was not afraid to write things down and own my opinions, ideas, joys, heartbreaks and all the things that make me "flicted."

Did I really have more to say in 2004 than I do now? Hell no.

I've always had plenty to say. My silence is a reflection of my fear and it sucks. I hate fear. It steals the shine off of life and it sucks the joy out of moments that should be savored. I took a risk and I got rejected. I got my heart broken real bad and I've been pretty trashed on the inside ever since but so what? Like I'm the only one who's ever been trashed, really?

I hear every voice of every coach I've ever had, and my dad, "Suck it up Trace."

I'm ashamed of myself and like that cheesy quote I led with, I won't do anyone any good pretending to be less than I am. I am flicted and I love that about me.

So, it's time to revive The Flicted Friend.

I need to open my eyes again to the amuzing moments and the little life lessons learned in my life and I need to share them. Not because everyone needs to read them, but because I need to share them.

Join me, if you want. Catch up, if you must. Read on, if you like. It will be flicted, I promise.